hmm... what to say now... i wrote alot on the 11th...  umm... today is the 22nd and well im bored... and pissed... ok... so tuesday... i was suposed to go out with my 3 best friends and see fehreinheit 9/11 (which we had planed on for days!!) and insted my mom calls me only hours before we were suposed to leave and tells me she voulenteerd me to babysit my a.d.d. cousin heather... i told her no... the in the long run got pushed in to it anyway... then today christopher and i were suposed to go get our hair cut... then go see his grandma's... well... as it turns out i have my pussy of a sister here and she wont stay home alone... (and by the way she was at my grandmas this morning but my mom opted to bring her home on her lunch hour BECAUSE SHE KNEW IT WOULD KEEP ME FROM MY PLANS!) ... so now im suposed to leave my plans (that i've had for a week!!!!) hanging on a string... that string just so happens to be my dad getting home early...  WHAT A FUCKING BITCH... BOTH TIMES SHE CLAIMED THAT SHE NEVER KNEW ANYTHING OF MY PLANS... WHICH ISNT TRUE I REMEMBER TELLING HER MORE THEN ONE TIME!!! whatever she's the one that will have to deal with my dad... he's coming home early from his job just so i can go out with chris YOU KNOW THE PLANS IVE HAD FOR A WEEK!!!  he's gonna be furious!!! i cant wait to see him!!!

 

hey all... wow its been like forever since i last posted... 1-5 of july me, chris, melissa, aaron, and alycia, my family, and the allens all went up north... for the most part it was fun... we went tubing every day (with an exception of the day we went home) and had 2 bon fires... one lasted pretty long... the other... well... we had a large twig to light... and umm... nothing else!! so of course the next day we had to go out and become lumberjacks... alycia being the beast she is was just pushing over trees... while i picked up twigs... and chris and aaron hacked away at the same tree for nearly an hour... turns out we never got to use their tree... it got saved for later times... ok... we came home on the 5th... the 6th was mooshies 19th b-day... and today here i stand (actually im sitting) and its july 11th... a mere 2 days from my birthday... july 13, 1987 1988, 1989, 1990, 1991, 1992, 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 1997, 1998, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004 17... ok... so its nothing... i can guarentee that anyone reading this is older then me... merely because i cant name a single friend i have that is younger then me... ok... so i usually dont care about my birthday... its kinda like easter... or christmas... or whatever... its a yearly thing... its rutein... but this year... yeah... christopher is being a sneeky about what he's getting me... slightly nerve racking... after all... for christmas he got me Ares (My black DEAN bass)... and then not long after Rozalyn (my lucid red bass)... and not long after that my piccalo (which is cooler then any piccalo ever... its blue with all gold keys and rods!) so... yeah... just to make me more courious... he's got people in on it... like moosh... and bill...
ok i just wrote an ass load of stuff... im giving up now...

later!!

june... almost july... i cant wait... the first though the fifth were going up north... but this time its gonna be awesome... chris, aaron, melissa, and alycia all get to come with me... its gonna be so sweet... alycias' been up there before... (but that was like forever ago... im talking like 5th grade!) ive waited so long to share some of the beautiful sights that are up there with the people i actually care about...

moving on... umm what else... got a cell phone... and no im not gonna tell you the number... lol... unless you already have it... sorry no # post... im just a little uncomfortable with putting my # on a public blog... no freaky people calls... unless one of those people is my friends... even then maybe i wont answer... lol...
love you all!

ok so this week has deffinatly sucked ass... i crashed my car... almost killed 4 people... and to top it all off... im stuck here at home... yeah theres people here with me to help me not feel as bad... but... yeah... i still feel like shit... katie, nicole, and stephen.... katie and nicole have matching wounds... between the two there's about 40 or so staples... and multiple stitches in either head... stephen and i walked away with minor stuff... he's got a scratch on his face and back of his head... and i've got a slide mark (on my arm) and multiple bruises (everywhere and im sure theres more to be found... cuz they dont hurt till you hit them...) yeah thats enough for now... im gonna go do something or someone (lycia's sounding good bout now... LOL JUST KIDDIN...(AND CHRIS IS OVER HERE YELLIN "ME! ME!" LOL)or something else... im not sure yet... but i'll keep you posted...

ok so this week has deffinatly sucked ass... i crashed my car... almost killed 4 people... and to top it all off... im stuck here at home... yeah theres people here with me to help me not feel as bad... but... yeah... i still feel like shit... katie, nicole, and stephen.... katie and nicole have matching wounds... between the two there's about 40 or so staples... and multiple stitches in either head... stephen and i walked away with minor stuff... he's got a scratch on his face and back of his head... and i've got a slide mark (on my arm) and multiple bruises (everywhere and im sure theres more to be found... cuz they dont hurt till you hit them...) yeah thats enough for now... im gonna go do something or someone (lycia's sounding good bout now... LOL JUST KIDDIN...(AND CHRIS IS OVER HERE YELLIN "ME! ME!" LOL)or something else... im not sure yet... but i'll keep you posted...

YEAH... im here chillin' at karens hiz-ouse!! shes my cuz... she's aight!! ok cammie... kick out of ghetto mode... umm... not really much to say... life is good... i guess... im happy for now..


ok im outie!!

ok its like 8:16 am on a friday and im in well...umm... school...good for me right... its not often im here... lol... im joking... ok well im chillin on ms. nye's comp. ok... umm... well.... gotta... yeah go... bye... i'll write again when we get back from states tonight...

yippie!! ........

ok in my last post i started with complaining how long it had been since i last posted... well now its been like 11 days... HE HE... ok well i dont really have many good things to write... my life hasent changed AT ALL...EVER... so yeah... i still have a bitchy dad who thinks that everything is my fault ( im surprised i havent been grounded for the sun going down later yet...) and my mom is still a broken stick (splinters every where... and not very attractive) and my sister well lets not go there... i have so much hate for her right now... i hope she dies... i have no more human compassion left for any of these people... i can honestly say that i wish they all left or were dead... and sure now your thinking "no you dont... you love them" and you'd be wrong... truth is i'd miss them... sure... who else is gonna feed me and give me gas... but beyond that theres nothing.... maybe these thoughts are cruel but at least there real...

geezz... its been like 4 days since ive posted... ok.. well any ways i took my first wack at the A.C.T.'s this morning... it went ok i guess im glad i studyed as well as i did... had i not i probably wouldnt have known but maybe 2 or 3 questions... (pathetic.. i know..) the whole time i was taking the test i was singing in my head and the lyrics werent helping me concentrate at all (see the lyrics in 3-30's post, and doll dugga buzz buzz ziggity zag by manson)... when i got home (like 2 and a half hours ago i layed down and took a short nap... i actually had the house to myself... now im composing more of my piece (anyone reading this-you are now the first people to know im writing something-and if your a trombone with out an f attachment, im sorry if you ever see this piece-devilish laugh goes here...)
ok back to writing... if any of you have fav. song parts that i could take insperation from or even 2 beat pattern kind of things send them to me: http://www.Lights_on_but_no_ones_home@msn.com

march 30th!! YEA!!! wait what in the hell am i happy about? theres nothing special about today...
ok... seeing as i have nothing more to post... here are some lyrics to look at... i really like thos song...

I can't regret
Can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
And if we go down we go down together
Best friends means...
Best friends means...
And I've got a twenty dollar bill
That says you're up late night starting,
Fist fights verse the fences...
In your backyard
Wearing a black eye like a badge of honor
Soaking in sympathy from friends who never loved you
Nearly half as much as me

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you...
It's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live wihout it
Don't believe me when I tell you...
It's something unforgivable

I can't regret
Can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
And if we go down we go down together
Best friends means...
Best friends means...
You never knew...
Well I never told you
Everything I know about breaking hearts
I learned from you it's true
I've never done with the style and grace you have
But I've made loads of plans
Based on these mistakes

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you...
It's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live wihout it
Don't believe me when I tell you...
It's something unforgivable

Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
(over many times)
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